don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you got 'til it's gone?

11:44 a.m.
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07 February, 2004

It comes to my attention that maybe I sounded no older than twelve in the last entry. It's very possible I'm regressing, I'm even listening to the old music I used to love back when I was a wee bairn. Ya know, Elvis, John Lennon, Queen, T-Rex, The Sex Pistols, etc. I was not your average child.

I was actually thinking back to what a misfit I used to be. I mean, I'm still searching for my own kind, but back then I was so completely alienated and cut off from the world around me that, if I was my parents, I would have been worried. I guess that's why they were worried.

Nothing about the environment I lived in was real, I made it all up. I don't even remember faces or names of hardly anyone I went to primary school with. All I wanted to do was hang out in my room with my old records, and the city I had built all across my floor, and write stories and draw pictures.

All the kids were aliens to me, I was a foot taller than everyone anyway. Nobody believes me when I say I was this height at nine, but it's true. I stopped growing when I was nine, and I'm still average height. I was even taller than my teacher in Year Five.

And the best part is that I never knew that it could be wrong to be separate and different. I didn't have time for anyone trying to tell me what to do, because I was so engrossed in my own life. I wish I had that as effortlessly as I did back then. I'm getting there though.

Going out tonight with Woody and will probably end up in Baa Bars again, if there's nowhere else to go. I do loves to dance, plus I might see the fantasty perfect woman person again... though I doubt it, because I'm not that lucky.

I'm thinking about quitting the LGB. I just don't fit in there, no matter how much I try. I particularly dislike the girls, they're immature and pathetic. I mean, which normal adult goes all stupid and shy with someone just because you kissed at a nightclub one night? I couldn't believe it, I was sooooo good and refused to break my no more one night stands rule. And people are still stupid. Goddamn them all.

Rebekah is going to call her baby Isabelle. I hope she ends up looking like her father. Blergh.

That's all I can really bitch about today.


	Miaow
	11:44 a.m. / 07 February, 2004 It comes to my attention that maybe I sounded no older than twelve in the last entry. It's very possible I'm regressing, I'm even listening to the old music I used to love back when I was a wee bairn. Ya know, Elvis, John Lennon, Queen, T-Rex, The Sex Pistols, etc. I was not your average child. I was actually thinking back to what a misfit I used to be. I mean, I'm still searching for my own kind, but back then I was so completely alienated and cut off from the world around me that, if I was my parents, I would have been worried. I guess that's why they were worried. Nothing about the environment I lived in was real, I made it all up. I don't even remember faces or names of hardly anyone I went to primary school with. All I wanted to do was hang out in my room with my old records, and the city I had built all across my floor, and write stories and draw pictures. All the kids were aliens to me, I was a foot taller than everyone anyway. Nobody believes me when I say I was this height at nine, but it's true. I stopped growing when I was nine, and I'm still average height. I was even taller than my teacher in Year Five. And the best part is that I never knew that it could be wrong to be separate and different. I didn't have time for anyone trying to tell me what to do, because I was so engrossed in my own life. I wish I had that as effortlessly as I did back then. I'm getting there though. Going out tonight with Woody and will probably end up in Baa Bars again, if there's nowhere else to go. I do loves to dance, plus I might see the fantasty perfect woman person again... though I doubt it, because I'm not that lucky. I'm thinking about quitting the LGB. I just don't fit in there, no matter how much I try. I particularly dislike the girls, they're immature and pathetic. I mean, which normal adult goes all stupid and shy with someone just because you kissed at a nightclub one night? I couldn't believe it, I was sooooo good and refused to break my no more one night stands rule. And people are still stupid. Goddamn them all. Rebekah is going to call her baby Isabelle. I hope she ends up looking like her father. Blergh. That's all I can really bitch about today. prev > next > fresh > rotted > profile > fans > rings > notes > email > design > host >