9:55 p.m.
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30 December, 2003

The end of the year already...

My life has changed completely that I don't think I could have made it work out this way. But I'm glad it has. I love being scared, I love the feeling that I'm walking on unbeaten ground. I never know what to do or say, and I love that. I think I could live off adrenaline.

Anyway, tomorrow, I'm going up to London to go clubbing with Laura, then meet up with Gaz afterwards in Trafalgar Square... for some reason. I've decided that I'm going to make it clear to Laura that I'm not interested in having a relationship. I'm not into her in that way, and I want to save my attention and energy for someone that I could be. Who knows, this could be the year.

This time next year, I hope to be feeling optimistic about my degree, being in the last year and all. I hope to be liking someone, even if I'm not with them. I hope that all my family are healthy and happy. I hope I'm living away from home still and not been forced back onto the island. I hope that I'm close to finishing 'The Swamp', if not already finished. I hope I have pink hair. I hope I've had my heart broken.

Oh, and I hope I have The Sims2!